i want you to have a good rest too.
not that i don't understand, just hope you recharge then work doubly hard.
i believe it's better, as you rest you can still think about work.
that's how i usually do things.
trying to help, don't mean to make things turn out this way.
i swear i didn't asked for anything at all, just want you to relax and enjoy.
it is of good intentions.
i feel the pain, damn pain.
no need to accommodate me, i'll accommodate you.
it seem like i have much more time.
was happily coming home fast to do something, and it kills my mood.
i don't know ah! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK IT!!!!
what i want now is you to have sufficient rest, and be happy.
am i adding on to your burden? if yes just let me know eh.
the way you say is like im adding on to your burden.
i am trying my best also!

next week going back to tekong.
from tuesday onwards i won't be able to contact you.
not that im selfish, but i just want to spend more time with you.
but it seem like when im around you always can't concentrate, so i think it's best that i don't bother you when you are studying.
i don't want to add on to your burden.
i need to reshape myself and get back my fitness for next week.
2 more weeks to end of BSLC.

one of the most anticipated time of my current life.
i want to share with you the joy, i want you to put on my cap for me also.
but but but, it will nvr happen.
each time i see your calendar and that day is empty.
was hoping to hear a yes.
sad, definitely, inevitable.
want a picture with you on one of my most memorable day.
sigh.

just wish you could be there.
but it's too late.

not many days left. 
counting down to the day.
so many things have happen and it seem like it's going back to square one.
i don't know how to say, but i'll still say it.

i have no right to feel how i want to feel.
my feelings have lost its freedom.
what you want it to be it must be it.
you never spare a thought for me.
what can i say?

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!