not many days left. 
counting down to the day.
so many things have happen and it seem like it's going back to square one.
i don't know how to say, but i'll still say it.

i have no right to feel how i want to feel.
my feelings have lost its freedom.
what you want it to be it must be it.
you never spare a thought for me.
what can i say?

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My birthday is finally over.
sunday i had dinner with my family to celebrate my birthday and also my dad's one.
we had lunch at Marina Mandarin's Peach Blossoms. the food is great, as usual my favourite oriental cuisine! (:

And on my actual birthday, went to double o.
and i think im down at 1am or so. damn cui! hahaha.
but im happy to meet up with many of my classmates.
and also my beloved sister hannah, and her sister helena, bronson, sarah and bf, abby, karmen, sandy.
and my ritz colleagues.
thanks people for coming! (:
hope you all did enjoy yourself!

thank you sister for planning and settling all the things at double! THANK YOU!!
without you, i think the whole thing is a flop alr!

i am going to take a step back.
you don't have to bother bout me.
you might not even care about me.
i don't know what to say, what to do anymore.
all my efforts gone to waste.
that thing has marked my downfall.
that thing might not even be important to you.
fuck it man. FUCK IT!

all i want is to enjoy my bday.
and my wish is to have you.

im thinking too much. so i should come back to reality and think again!
i shouldn't hurt you anymore.
maybe i should just go, so you 'll have a peaceful life.
you take care ah. 

im going to get my itouch soon, in a few days time. 
and next im going to buy my coach wallet or maybe bintan first.
then after that if i can save enough money, i'll get the coach bag that i want.
this are all the things that i want to get before im enlisting.
im working for it!

i don't know what is wrong!
is it me or is it you?
there are so many things to joke or tease about.
why choose something you know that i will be unhappy eh?
don't tell me you don't know. it's not the first time also.
ya you did nothing wrong. i am wrong.
i shouldn't have bothered so much about you.
i shouldn't be so bothered about what you do.
what you want to do just do ah.
i can't stop you, and you also won't listen.
i shall just keep quiet, and i shall not bother you.


i don't know why.
but i felt the pinch.
my heart sunk.
im holding it back, it's very hard.
why do i feel this now?
why am i doing all these?
it's bcos i love you.