i am going to take a step back.
you don't have to bother bout me.
you might not even care about me.
i don't know what to say, what to do anymore.
all my efforts gone to waste.
that thing has marked my downfall.
that thing might not even be important to you.
fuck it man. FUCK IT!

all i want is to enjoy my bday.
and my wish is to have you.

im thinking too much. so i should come back to reality and think again!
i shouldn't hurt you anymore.
maybe i should just go, so you 'll have a peaceful life.
you take care ah. 

im going to get my itouch soon, in a few days time. 
and next im going to buy my coach wallet or maybe bintan first.
then after that if i can save enough money, i'll get the coach bag that i want.
this are all the things that i want to get before im enlisting.
im working for it!

i don't know what is wrong!
is it me or is it you?
there are so many things to joke or tease about.
why choose something you know that i will be unhappy eh?
don't tell me you don't know. it's not the first time also.
ya you did nothing wrong. i am wrong.
i shouldn't have bothered so much about you.
i shouldn't be so bothered about what you do.
what you want to do just do ah.
i can't stop you, and you also won't listen.
i shall just keep quiet, and i shall not bother you.


i don't know why.
but i felt the pinch.
my heart sunk.
im holding it back, it's very hard.
why do i feel this now?
why am i doing all these?
it's bcos i love you.

O bar was fun! but some things happened too.
chill man! hope my tequila shot chilled you! (: hahaha.
so many happening stuffs happened. and i cannot comment much about it.
drinks were like free. we can keep drinking and drinking.
and we got a drunkard, thanks ah dorothy! need people to take care of you!

next session ill be on my bday! 
Butter Factory my friends! 
CHEERS! 

my birthday is coming soon.
but i don't know how to celebrate.
it's not the same as last time.
something is amiss. 
there's something that i really want, but i know i can't get it.
maybe i should just work and let the day pass.
there's no meaning to it.


work work work.
i want to save money and go shopping!
my watch, wallet and bag! omg.
can't wait to get it! (: i'll get it 1 by 1.
before i go ns. i should be able to have it all! (: hahahahhaa


if it reaches there
i believe i can see the smile on your face
but it didn't
who can understand how i felt?
it's totally hell for me
no words of concern
unappreciated
demoralised
felt so stupid

IT'S GONE! WHERE THE FUCK IS IT NOW?
I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE I CAN DO!
IM TIRED!
I NEED A BREAK!